Sometimes it is just necessary to drop all of the “non-essentials” so that you can continue to “exist” without funneling and twirling further into the abyss of the dark hole you’re in.
That is where I was for a couple of months. I felt like I was drowning and gasping for air. I would have never described myself as an overly emotional person, but maybe I am. And that is ok…no really, it is.
We all process our emotions differently. I find that when I am overwhelmed, I oftentimes feel numb for a little while. It’s like I’m in a bubble and I can see and hear everything around me, but my response time is slow. Then, I begin to process why I’m in the bubble so that I can do what is necessary to get out of it. Sometimes that involves writing it out, talking it out, crying, praying–
–well, it always involves praying.
But to get to the core of the issue, I have to be willing to feel all the feels and acknowledge the pain, confusion, anger, hurt, grief–whatever it is. And in doing that, sometimes I need to drop everything. Everything of course is not everything, but all that is not required for me to function. It’s like the science gurus say– when there is damage to the body, the blood and nerves and all the fancy body parts immediately rush to the area to get it fixed. That is what it is like for me when I’m going through a tough time. Every cell, nerve ending (or important bodily feature) rushes to my heart, my soul, and my mind to get it all fixed.
That means that social media with all the fun photos, quips and funnies and memes and videos have to take the back-burner–because I’m getting fixed. And in order to do that, I have to concentrate all of my efforts to do so.
It doesn’t sound as pretty and flowery as “self-care,” and “taking a breather” but that is what it is. And it is necessary for my “fixedness” to occur. I used to be ashamed of that fact. I’m not now because it is a part of who I am. So, in those times, I drop it all for the sake of sanity, well-being–well, for my sake–for me.
After all, I am important.
So, if and when you find yourself in these types of moments–get through them in the best way that benefits you. Your social media and your cute little blog will be there waiting for you when you return. You may even get a few “I missed you’s” or “I was praying for you’s” that will warm your heart. Be thankful for the rough times too because they are growing you. There is purpose in those times and you learn so much about yourself and your strength. Give yourself permission to feel and to be “fixed.” Take the time necessary to be the best version of yourself. I did. It was not easy, but it was worth it.
Here is my first post back into the InterVerse! ♥