Sometimes, it’s a good idea to evaluate yourself. And by evaluate, I mean, really look inward…dig deep and search your heart.
I’ve been thinking and observing myself lately and I’ve come to the conclusion that the “meat” of my makeup is relationship. It’s the way I give and receive love. It’s the main avenue that devil has used against me. Yes, I said the devil; he really does exist. When I think of the times that I’m the most happy and peaceful or in turmoil and hurt, it’s usually surrounding relationships….ones that are amazing, others that are dysfunctional and/or nonexistent. I used to confuse this with my identity, thus having “identity crisis” when faced with rejection, dishonesty, or even betrayal from others. It was a crazy cycle and I no longer live that way.
The truth is…I love. I love hard. I’m honest and giving, silly and quirky…I’ll give you my last dollar and my time/talents. I enjoy quality time and laughter like its food to my soul. I love encouraging others and I’m a good friend…a really good one. And the best thing about it is…I’m gonna live. I refuse to be boxed in, crippled by disappointment and hiding in fear of being hurt. I’m embracing myself…and if you can’t, you’re the one missing out. I’m living drama free and enjoying the good times. I’m gonna be sappy sometimes, and say how I feel. I’m gonna cry if I need to and hug you if you need it, and ask for one when I need it too. I’m even gonna post long statuses on social media from time to time. Lol! Is it risky to live this way? Yes. But so what? People will be people and life is not fair, but I’m letting go of my reservations. I’m gonna soak up and give all the love and fun I can take and live in today…not yesterday or tomorrow. And I’m loving myself along the way….quirks and all; being thankful for the good and not dwelling on the bad; discovering who I am and saying to myself, “Hello Beautiful.”
Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself. #livelife #lovehard #mznaturallifesays